reminiscing

so it's monday. i've been to the gym, i've had a nice big relatively healthy breakfast, and then undone all the good gym stuff by eating two extra dark chocolate lindt truffles. they're extra dark though, which means they're okay. dark chocolate is good for you! or something. right?

and now i'm watching the real world: sydney complete with commentary from coral. remember coral, everybody? she was on the real world about a million years ago and then she was on EVERY SINGLE real world road rules challenge ever. anyway, i actually do like her. she's very funny, plus she has that whole independent, strong, i-am-woman-hear-me-roar thing going on, which in some girls is obnoxious but in her works.

people on the real world are sooooo immature and silly. there needs to be a higher age limit or something, maybe that would help. although i doubt it. everyone gets all crazy with a camera in their face, in general, and i can't imagine how that changes when said camera is turned on 24/7.

i was able to speak with caitlin yesterday, which is always nice and although i don't want to feel like i'm bugging her, i always want to happen more often. every-other-day more often. i miss her. and i'm glad she's doing well in nyc and i'm glad i'm doing well here, but i still miss her. i just wish i could see her more often, that's all, so there are more times like this, just me and my best friends in the world playing around on a random sunday, eating breakfast together and drinking coffee and lounging around watching stupid television shows.

i honestly don't miss school that much, especially since all the fucked-up-ness that's happening there this year, but i do miss my friends being so close by and i miss my 'sister.'

i miss the smallest things, like i always do, and i knew i would. smoking cigarettes on the curlies, 'lost' in the lounge, skipping geography and playing on her computer instead, small road trips to charlottesville, and dollar theatre 'date nights.'

but i am happy here, don't get me wrong. and when i say i wish i had more money, that's pretty much the only reason why--so i can travel and see everyone and make positively SURE we all stay in touch, because it is TOOO easy to lose touch, even with blogs and facebook and myspace and cell phones and skype. all this technology, yet it's sometimes almost easier to lose touch, ignore people, forget people...

i love living here, with nate, with the dog and the cat, with my job, relatively close to some friends and family, i do. but of course there's always people and places i want to visit...i want to go on adventures! and adventures will come some day and i'm pretty damn convinced that in the end, caitlin and i will end up being little old ladies with houses right next door to one another, reminiscing on the back porch in our rocking chairs about how crazy we were back in college and how silly we were for missing each other so much after college, because of course we would end up close to one another, eventually.

in the meantime, i worked my five consecutive shifts last week and survived (!) i work tonight also, but then i have three days off in a row, which is perfect, since family family family is coming in to town!

i've never been so excited for thanksgiving. dad's coming in late tonight. i think tomorrow the two of us are going to maybe go to the gym together and then definitely go do coffee and catch up. he's been up in saratoga since august and the two of us haven't seen each other in a while, although we have been writing letters (yes, real letters) back and forth on a regular basis. but i'm excited to do coffee with him and actually speak with him about all the cool stuff that's happening in saratoga. he seems to be having a really good time. then i guess becca comes in maybe tomorrow or something, and i haven't seen her in about a month, so i'm definitely excited to see her too. then my cousins, aunt, and uncle are coming up from atlanta on wednesday and thanksgiving is thursday!!

thanksgiving is the only holiday, i maintain, that gets better as you get older. well, halloween maybe also. and new years. but that's it. either way, thanksgiving this year is going to be mucho fun. i want to bake an apple pie from scratch. we'll see how that goes. i've been on a bit of a baking spree for about a week now.

i want to go bungee jumping.

live.it.up.

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